Soul

2007-11-01T20:51:00.001+08:00

Ive Moved....

www.cila.vox.com

2007-10-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Frens...

It wasnt as joyous like last time.

This time i have to give all those small kids green packets.

Da kakak lah katerkan..

Yesterday went out with the monkeys.

Boyfie drove yesterday.

As usual, he and his stupid jokes.

Make stupid faces when taking pics.

But i love you lah b..

MUAACCKKKXXXXX!!!!!!

weekend is hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

2007-10-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

Listening to 4U2C song...
hahaha...
old school sia..

Aneways...
Going swimming wif monkeys n the swens peeps.
Its fasting month.
i noe...but ...
nvm..

met bestie juz now.
had long john silver.
tcc drinks.
tok about ncc
miss the mrs lam days.
mr chua.
n the sea monkey.
muahaha...

i will upload the pics ok.
juz too lazy now.
as usual...

Swensens...

2007-10-01T12:14:00.000+08:00

Werking in Swensens was so much fun.
The people.
The place i met shahreza.
The place we make frens.

BUT............................................................

This remind of of someone whom i dun really wish to mention in any of my blog.

So to that person who may or may not read this..friends or relatives of that gurl.

Please convey the message.

Please stop distubing my bf.
Well,dun u haf ur own life.
U hate people.U say u feel like smacking her face.
Do u realise how many ppl are waiting to smack ur face.?
Ppl don have anything against u.
Juz becoz u dun like them u wanna smack them.
Fat Bitch.
U are so not going to be my fren.
And u will never get a HI from me.
Get a life gurl.
My bf don nid u to nudge him at msn every now and then.

So frens and relatives please convey the message ok.

Thank You.

wonderful weekend.

2007-09-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

My weekend was superbbbbbb...

Thanx to my beloved crazy monkeys,hafiz,ezam,zinn and dinath,

And of coz Shahreza.

We went shopping.

Peninsula.Bugis.Geylang(yeah..Geylang...)

Had dinner at mos burger.City hall.

Fun Fun Fun...

Ok Guys...Dun ferget our next outing eh...

Aku tol2 semangat raye..
I decided to put up the Hari Raya songs.
Muahahahhaah...
No idea what song to put lah..
Enjoy eh...

Work was ermmmm...
Will elaborate more when the time is right.
Im moving on.
Support from my BF,family,and frens.
So thankx guys.

And i will be shopping for my Hari Raya shoe..
Woohooo..

Getting a hair cut tomorrow.
So....

Enjoy the songs ehhhhh.....

Friday~~~~!!

2007-09-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

Its Friday today.Met Boyfie and my 3 monkeys yesterday.Fun ah..these monkeys never failed to make me laugh.

And this bitch has to destroy my friday morning.Damn u..

Gotta start working now..Adios..

And i promise im gonna kill this bitch now...Urgh..~~!!

2007-09-25T16:26:00.000+08:00

In the office.
Sleepy.
Fasting.
Dehydrating.
Boring.

Im so free now..Finished my work early.Cant wait to be home todae.So i can hug my bantal busuk.weee~!.
I got rashes yesterday..phew....luckily it was juz a minor one.

SO tired today.......
Very Tiredddd...
I wanna go home!!!!~~

I love u Aza!!!! Muaxxxx!!~~~see u on saturday ok?

September.

2007-09-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

This month wasnt so good fer me.I was in KL spending my freaking 2 weeks there...
Then came back..lots of things happen...which i dun wish to mention..was happy..but confused...haiz...

Hate it when this happen...but well...like you say...see how it goes...

miss my buddies so much..ezam,hafiz n zinn...and of coz u gemook...shahrezzaaaa..

stupid gemok...make me angry oni......

meeting him tomorrow..

work was crazy this week..so many things to do...fark up...

i willl upload the pics to my multiply...my kl pics..my ermmm...outing pics wif my buddies...so go my multiply ok..

LOVE U!yeah...U!!!!*wink*

a week in kl again...

2007-09-10T17:54:00.001+08:00

took airebus at DFS scotts road at 730...the bus was kewl....reach ard 1..
kid will be accompanying me here....pphewww...~but he will only be reaching at 12am..haiz....
had lunch alone..so lonely...but getting used to the things here....but hello...im not going to come here anemore....hahha...
i miss home....i miss shahreza...
im gonna spend my first day puasa here..
kesian kannnnnn....
haiz.....
but nvm...aneway im going off soon.......better be early..
coz im not sure to get back to my apartment from here....hahaha.....so better find my way...
n i cant wait for friday to come.....so i can go home n never think of coming back here...
coz new girl will be starting soon....
i liokkeee....
werking here has never been easy.....
hp bills will be expensive......
keep topping up my hotlink..prepaid card here....msg to singapore cost a ringgit...damn....oryte..i better get home....wanna rest...
Adios......~~~

ANnoYing SMS

2007-09-07T10:22:00.000+08:00

Finally its Fri....Get to meet my baby..But im so not looking forward on MOn...Hve to be come back here again...

Updates on my trip fer 5 days here.

Im using this malaysian number fer this malaysian to call me up fer interview....then received a msg.

Idiot: Ni sape?

Me: Sheila dari recruit international (coz i only publish this number on the Malaysia newspapers..no one else noes except the ppl who read papers n boyfie)

Idiot:Ktne 2?pe kba?

Me:Mid Valley..Sape nie?

Idiot: Ek?sptt'a akuyg tnye ko ni sape?Sbb ko de mskol aku..igtkn sheila kwn td.

(me rolling my eyes after i finally understand his or her sms....kwn tadi? i dun call malaysia number..its them who call me..idiot....)

Me: I think you get the wrong number..Thanx fer wasting my time..

Idiot : Ok no hal..

I was like hello.............. Do u understand my english...no hal...ya i got a freaking hal wif for you....this muz be one stupid2 mat2 or those minah2 nak act jambu....like euuuwww.....

ok thats it... chg topic..

Past few days was fun..werk was as normal..always busy wif interviews and phone calls..my phone wont stop ringing...

Went to lots of places wif ed..Went to pasar mlm....try almost the food there..i love the uncle bob's chicken...wohooo...shiok sia.....then had a vietnam popiah...its very unique..i love it...n tried the smelly tofu...not bad oso...and try all those foods thats not available in Singapore..But still hoping that my boyfie can be wif me...

Had it when it comed to the apartment....its so quiet....boring..only tv to entertain myself...

cant waaittt to reach home todae....miz family n shahreza...miz my bantal busuk...miz my bed....mis so many things......

Life is hard here...i still cant get used to it..i might be after a few days alone here....

Missing u badly....

taken some pictures...not pics of myself...(surprise surprise.)pics of KL....ok..im lazy to upload...so will do it during the weekends....

ToDDles~~~

2 weeks away...

2007-09-06T09:23:00.000+08:00

Its my fourth day in Kuala Lumpur....Nice working environment..STill prefer Singapore office though..Miss my smoking kakis... Miss my family...and most of all i miss shahreza....going back on friday though im not suppose to..but i juz nid to go home n mit my fav people....shahreza n family....saturday mariam is having a bdae party..its her 21st bdae.....sun mdm azean is getting engaged...so i betta get home fer these events...they are my fav bunch of ppl lah....went thru everything together when im at swensens....

On monday morning gotta catch the first bus to KL....taking at DFS...Airebus...haiz....will be all alone...boyfie having his exams....so cant tag along wif me..... i betta get to work now...

P/S: To Zinn and Dinath , i will be back MAnnnnn....gonna go shopping on Saturday....hehehe....

To BoYfiE: Im gonna see u first thing i reach Spore...C u tomorrow DaRL......Muaxxxx.....

.......

2007-09-02T13:43:00.000+08:00

im too lost.
Noting.
No one.

i wanna get out from all this..
Can sumone help me get out from all this shits.

And these students of mine.
Cant stop giving probelms.
I had enuf ald ok.

Haiz..

Hope this trip to kl can make me better...

Simple.Memorable.Sweetness.Sincere.Love.

2007-09-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

Love is in the air.

My cuzzin got married.

Happy.

Love.

Age is never an issue.

Congrats CUzzin.

Met my wonderful cuzzins.

Of coz,we took lots of pics.

Me and bride

Me and Balqis

Me and Ain

Me and Dzulfiqar

Me and my cuzzins and my alien bro

Me and Mama

Mama and Ayah

Bro and the bride

After that,me,cuzzins,bro and shahreza went swimming at my cuzzin's place.Wee~~..Thanx cuzzins fer the day..Really enjoy it.

More pics at my multiply.Check it out.

http://cilareza.multiply.com

away fer a week.

2007-08-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

back with lots of updates.

Saturday 1st September.
Cuzzin geeting married.Will be dere tomorrow.get to mit my cuzzins...its been a while since i meet them.will get the photos upload tomorrow.for sure it will be an amazing day.

Sunday 2nd September.
Going out wif boyfie.date.been a while since we went on a proper date.hahaha...

Monday 3rd September- 9 September.
Will be away to Kuala Lumpur.Not on a holiday.I wish i cud.Will be working at my KL office.So peeps try not to call me that much.hahaha... contact me on msn aite.

Today.31 August.
Went to find a blouse fer cuzzin wedding.kid was dere to accompany me.i went to geylang.yup..geylang.place where i will most often.......not go...haha...but still..mummy insist i get sumting nice to wear.Got it.Thanx to first lady.but the service sux.sales assistant was dere..i saw 5 on floor.3 on cashier.they never bother to greet,ask if we nid any help.all they do is stand like they are the ambassadors of the shop.sorry but i juz haf to say this.there is no service at all.
Next is the cashier,3 ladies were there.one lady fold the shirt.2nd lady take the bag and wait fer the receipt issued by the 3rd lady who is at the register.then 2nd lady after getting the receipt,attached the receipt to the bag and throw it to the customer.Im like..ok...no thank you.No smile.Noting.Kid told me she ws at first lady commercial.I was like so???!!!!! The more you sud be giving at least a smile to a customer.Damnnn..I really wish someone from the management team of first lady read this entry.Its such a shame.Reallly...Coz i noe first lady is an established company.But service must be dere too..Realllyyy....

ANother traumatizing experience i had was on thursday.I had subway for lunch.got the 6 inch cold cut trio.with juz lettuces..i dun eat the other crap in it.Was about to have my second bite when i saw a worm crawling on my bread..I totally freaked out..so now u guys will understand y boyfie n botak keep toking bout worm in my multiply.Its freaking disgusting ok..i mean,i hate insects.... so creepy........I decided to email to subway and gave feedback,not complain,juz a feedback... i noe how this complaint goes in fnb line.so was being nice to them in my email.Still waiting fer a reply..Damnnnnn~~~ no more subway fer me... but i dun mind the nice cookies though..

i better start packing now coz i will be out fer the whole weekends....so will update more on my trip to KL.... will miss u guys!!!~~

A sunday.

2007-08-26T17:30:00.000+08:00

A sunday.

Boring.

Starving.

Alone.

No Plans.

Mummy.

Daddy.

Malaysia.

Boyfie.

Punggol.

Kenduri.

Me.

Sit.

Stare.

Hungry.

Boredom.

Can someone juz show me what is food.

Sux.

Breakfast.

Lunch.

Dinner.

Past .

Days.

Out.

Saturday..........

2007-08-25T14:27:00.000+08:00

Juz woke up...really sleep well after a long weekdays........

Meeting boyfie later...dunnoe where we are off to.......no plans on saturday.......sianzzz...mummy asked me to accompany her to Bukit Batok..plain lazy.....so hot out dere...

Wednesday moght be going to werk at KL office...GGGeeeeeee~~~~....first tyme werking overseas..but edward will be dere...gonna ask him to go shopping wif me..weee~~~

i better go n get ready b4 boyfie reach....

Its All Him.....

2007-08-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

16th March 2005.The day i step into Swensens Jurong Point for my attachment.It was a 2 year attachment.Work all day long.And i was working 7-11 during that tyme too to earn extra cash fer my shopping.Its a habit.I werk 4 times a week.11pm to 7am.And after that get back home,have a shower and then went back to werk at swensens.And after that went back to 7-11 back to work.It was a painful and tiring period fer me then.But all that hard work have a reason.I wanted to go shopping.During that tyme,it wasnt me.I faced lots of problems back then.So my solution was to work,spend my time away working,shopping and spending tyme wif my fren.Of coz,i didnt appreciate the love one.Lots os reasons fer that which i dun wanna tok about in here.Met lots of frens.Customers became my frens too.More frens,less time fer myself and my family.I was rarely at home during that period.Im onli home on a certain timing and days.Skipped lots of classes back then.Had a lecturer , CHENG , who always ask me the same question again n again y i didnt turn up fer school.My mind wasnt fer studying.I partied wif my frens.Clubbing.Drinking.Drunk.Chill somewhere till the next morning.I even spend my day at my fren's place.I was so rebellious during that tyme.Noting or no one can really make me change.Frens back then, Ricky,Joe,7-11 staffs which i cant remember their names now.They never failed to make me smile,laugh and forget all those problems i had.Problem.Family.Money.BF.Bleargh....Hate life back then.

5th December 2005.The day he bacame part of the Swensens family.Mohamed Shahreza.He was a freaking asshole last tyme.Didnt tok to him.Stuck up.But we did tok eventually.He asked me fer a stick of cigg.Then began to go fer smoke break together.Then we tok.More n more.We had this Christmas Party back then.We celebrate it at Swensens.Thats wen his eyes met mine.Wierdo.So then on,went out after work and suddenly we were together.That nite was juz a day after work.We went to have supper.He sent me home.By cab.Which prolly now if he were to sent me hm by cab,he will be super duper broke.I used to stay at Jurong West aneway.It was really near his place.So after that we start sms ing each other.Like those kids are prolly doing now.Flirting in SMS.NNnnn PPpppPPPpooFFffff!!~~~~ CILA N REZA.it was 430am 14th January 2006.

Things got betta.Get to know each other more.Really more.He hates fish.Fussy about almost everything.Hates imitation stuffs.I wear some imitation stuffs too..whu don..ryte??but of coz he was against it.he hate coins.he has a certain pocket to put his wallet,hp,lighter,cigg and keys.And many more.I have never met a guy like this.Really.I tot only gerls are organise.He noes how to save up his money.He has more digits in his bank account than mine now.im a shoppaholic.what do u expect..i do shopping fer him every month.he hates shopping.i bought his boxer shirts pants shoes.name it.but well thats him.

one year had passed...He got into ITE..didnt heed my advice.chose the wrong course during the poly intake and he didnt get in.Fer me,i got promoted after i werk my ass off.OT everyday.Having a BF in the same outlet,staff,its hard..people might think im biased.but think back i have been fair to evryone there.n this guy always get to my nerves.Ryte B? But werking wif him is so much fun.He onli get to werk on fri and sat.like it when its a study week or a long holiday.get to meet him everyday at werk.we have no problems back then.everything went fine.had great memories back then.Miss those people in Swensens Jurong Point.We used to go fer outings,shopping,karaoke, went fer supper etc etc.....

The past few months was not really a good month fer us.Lots of problems.I managed to get a stable job.office hours.Recruitment officer.sounds cool but its not an easy job.mentally prepared.Had some issues going on between me n him.Cant get to meet each other as often as we did last tyme.he's schooling.Im werking.

Get to noe more frens.Although i knew some of them ald.Great bunch of peeps.

Well~To SHahReza..

Im sorry fer whatever ive done to hurt u..i noe i have been selfish.i did not spare a thought fer ur feelings.im grateful u are still wif me at this moment.Im stubborn.wont listen to any of ur advice.only look fer u wen i have problems.its bad.its really bad.i wish i could turn back tyme and stop myself from doing all this things to you.no matter what they say about us,noting can stop us from being together.

My life was filled with so much strife,

Until you, My Love came into my life.

With you I feel so good that I let my light shine,

And Darling, with you at my side, I'll be just fine.

Your soul shines and shines like a light,

So when I'm with you my life's so bright.

When we're together I feel so much love,

And you let your love fly on the wings of a dove.

Your heart is so very, very beautiful,

As you fulfill your loving role so dutiful.

We spend time with each other regardless of weather,

And we'll share so much love and fun together.

Our lives will be filled with so much pure bliss,

As each other we hold and our lips kiss.

We can send each other to heaven,

As we are together twenty-four seven.

Together we are meant to be,

Our lives will be great you will see.

As long as we keep each other in our heart,

Our love for each other will never part.

I feel that when two people fall in love that they take the strife out of each others life.With each other their lives will be fine and their life will shine. Love will fly freely like a dove flies. There is so much joy in sharing life with a person that you love. As long as you keep each other within your heart you will never ever part and you will love forever.

Thats fer u Shahreza.Im sorry again fer everything..Love u Always......

Its Been A While....

2007-08-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

Oryte.. Firstly i would like to thank shahreza fer getting back this blogspot..Its been ages since i last publish any posts from here...Thanx again baby...

Today was a nightmare.Mc todae due to bad stomach cramps.. Went to see doc at Admiralty Clinic.. He said everything is normal.. I mean what normal?? I have to go through this every freaking months?? urghhh.. But he gave me some painkillers.. Luckily boyfie accompany me.. It made the trip to the clinic worthwhile... (I hate spending my money on medicine or doctors..LOL).... So gonna get back to work tomorrow..

Next week i will going to my office in KL....i will be alone....yah...this is my first time travelling alone...Scary fer me..but keep thinking how cheap the ciggs dere and how much i can save up fer one week..hahahah.... I will be away fer a week probably.. Boyfie will miss me.. I noe...HAhah... He wasnt that happy when i told him about the trip..Welll~~ thats my job...

Its like 1250 now and i havent had my dinner and my medicine..Boyfie had been nagging me to eat since 8pm....

This blog is like only half way done....betta wash up and hit my bed now..... Toddlesss~

He's finally BACK..

2007-08-11T14:39:00.000+08:00

Okies..Lots Of updates to do..Lets start wif this guy..Shahreza....We are back to normal... Alhamdulillah..... Thanx b.. Fer understanding me.. Fer being dere fer me...Went thru ups and downs together.. SUmhow u will realise that no matter what people say about ur love one, u will still loves him.... It happened to me... To me he is the one... The one that never gave up on me..Im a stubborn gerl.. I noe that.. Whatever it is, he will always be the one fer me.. These few weeks taught me good lessons... How to appreciate ur bf betta... N i sure do now.. I dun haf to regret losing him.. I noe he is the one i wanna spend my life wif... SOrry fer being unfair to you... I love u.. No matter what happens.....Thanx Baby.... MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!

Now comes another "fren" of mine..He treat me more than that...BUt he thinks he noes me better than anyone else... Like hello dude... U treat me like fark.. Bear that in mind... Im not that easy as u think i am... I may be frendly..I have limits ok...I still have my dignity.. If u are so into fucking get ur bloody ass to geylang lah..SInce u say u earn big bucks.. What the hell!! Gerls..Beware of making frens wif people..Im lucky im not stupid to fall into his tricks... So that the end of my frenship wif him..Tot we cud be frens..But nah..he juz lost his self respect.......Bluekkkkk..

2005-06-06T15:06:00.000+08:00

im changing...i admit tat myself...im the person now who don care what people think i wont bother myself with stupid and lame stuffs..i believe in retribution..its proven..people who create a havoc in my life,they will be havoc in their life as well..so all i can do is sit back n relax and see what things awaits u guys..i shed a tear..till tat time.i realised my mind was playing trick on me...y shed a tear because of people whom u trying to get along well..they get what they want now..i believe they will suffer what i did...im not praying or hoping that will happen..but things seem to be in that way for me..so guys...i can live and do well without you guys..all u guys say were crap..whats all this tat u say"im a open person..once i don like it i will say".
so u don dare to say infront of me..well..i juz shoot it off infront of u..or maybe indirectly towards your truly devoted fren..get a life man or rather get a life boy....i am leading a better life now..without you!and those stuffs u said last time were like history.....hey guys..retribution...lets wait and see...

Friend Or Enemy?

Friends for life or Enemies till death?
I thought the first was true,
but then i got to know you.

This feeling isn't good,
but neither was the fight.
The fun times we used to share,
But now i've had it up to here.

I can't take this anymore,
someone's gonna hit the floor.
But this time we'll make it right,
You'll get the message,
And i'll win the fight.

2005-05-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

fuhhh...now onli i got the energy to blog..fark..so tired..off days fer so long...i feel so good...pay is getting soon..maybe 2mrw..ok joe n ricky..hold on..i noe u guys cant wait..so at home the whole day..slacking..eat..eat the apple crumble ice cream...its so nice....reminds me of swensens apple crumble..the sizzling hot plate..wow...gonna eat tat wen i get my pay..no idea wat to say aneway..i end it here..

Life is beautiful.

2005-05-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

life has been good fer me..back wif him again..we r juz meant to be together.rite honey?

pms todae.
didnt update bout wats happening to me.
been bz wif school,attachment n part time job.
good.
cash flows in.
bad.
tired.
no life.
didnt go out fer so long.
but honey.
i love u so much.
juz too much.
i love u honey.
i said it like twice.
haha.
gtg.
muz sleep.
school 2mrw.
part time job 2mrw.
ZZzzzZz..
my body is aching.
im out.

2005-05-08T02:47:00.000+08:00

a note to u.

time has pass.
i still feel the same.
i wanted to get back 2gether.
but sumting juz stop me.
its not because of him.
or even them.
juz nid the time.
to settle down.
realli think it thru.
but juz too bz to really sit down and think.
hope u understand me boy.
its hard to be me.
juggling 2 jobs n school.
i noe u try to understand.
don wanna hurt u coz of my no time.
i still love u baby.
no matter what comes.
say im stubborn or rebellious.
its juz me.
juz me baby....

2005-05-08T02:37:00.000+08:00

werk was soooo00OOOoooooo tiring todae...eve of mothers' day..phew...didnt even get a chance to look at the time..seem so fast..ricky n joe pick me up..so sweet of u guys..sit ard till 2am...as usual my collegues go crazy wen they look at ricky..no surprised..hahaha...so mit him up..then joe came...they werk 2mrw but still made the effort to pick me up..u guys r so sweet..i noe i sais it twice ald...but realli luv u guys...dedicated a song to perfect 10..while conferencing wif them..ask fer beutiful ones by suede..but end up wif dunnoe wat song..cant wait fer my $$$$ to come...so broke now...werking closing 2mrw..it will be mothers' day...gonna haf lots of sleep before i werk my ass off fer 2mrw....feel so sleepy ald...hopefully im able to blog everyday so i will noe wat i had done..u noe...haha...hope i will get a day off on monday...

note to hanisah...chill babe...wanna fuck tat gerl...we will do it 2gether..lets be a bitch 2mrw no matter how bz we are..

to ricky n joe..thanx guys!!!muacks!muacks!muacks!!

2005-05-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to my beloved late grandma

You look so peaceful lying there
With your hands folded upon your chest.
You look like you are sleeping
But you are at eternal rest.
So Long For Now.
Not a hair out of place,
Your make-up nicely done,
A beautiful smile upon your lips -
When someone special passes on
It does not mean they are gone,
Though they are no longer with us
Their memory still lives on.
It hurts so much to lose a friend -
Especially one that is trustworthy and kind.
Grandma, you were that special friend,
A rare and special find.
Grandma, you will always be with meIn spirit and in mind.
You will always have a special place in my heart
Forever until the end of time.
This is not the end.So I will just say,
"So long..."
I Love you always

2005-05-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

went to ricky place todae to do sum research on the asian civilisation thingy..but went hm ard 1030 coz he's going to queens..LOL!we will go chinajump k ricky??hehhe...i fell asleep while doing the report..it sucks sia..hahaha...kind of feeling not too well now..so i end it here...have a report to do...sian....im out.

2005-05-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

im so helpless..i need space..it did help a bit..the feeling is still not dere...wat am i to do????im lost,confused.....Help....show me sumting tat can lead me to a good ending to all these misery..

2005-05-04T18:14:00.000+08:00

hey..juz woke up actualli..spend the nite at boat quay..ricky,joe,jaja,rosli n me..it was fun..play cards..we actualli gamble..10 cents..hahaha...but i still make some money though.....abang ricky treat us to sumting 'special'..hehehe...b4 heading down to boat quay,we actualli spent 4 hours playing bowling..we played like 5 games each..then headed down to town to eat at sakura..and oso went to take joe's lost sim card..then walk ard..i cant believe it tat i bought 2 packs of ciggs yesterday...phew...muz haf smoke alot yesterday..

actualli we planned to go to ricky hse todae to do the assignment thing coz our abang joe dont haf internet at home..but were juz too lazy to go out todae..so doing it 2mrw...miting liena 2mrw..same class as her...wee...prefer thurs class than tues..like fark sia yesterday..wont mention anething..but it sucks..hahaha...not werking fer a few days..tis fri will be werking at 7-11..sat n sun at swensens..

aneway i watched GUESS WHO at cineleisure..wif of coz my buddy2..then saw farhana n kiki..hahaha...i felt like a princess...got free food..free ticket..taxi fare..hehehe..love u guys man...ok lah...i wanna get back to sleep..tired sia..aneway peeps don ferget to watch amazing race todae..hope rob and amber will win tis thing sia..juz love them...ok..so im out..

my special dedication to joe and ricky..

2005-05-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i lay my hands on my laptop..im juz freaking tired about everything...almost everything..now i get a peace of my mind..juz werk without worrying bout anything else..my frens realli understand howi feel now..no one else does..im thankful tat i found tis few people...i wanna say special thanx to my new frens which i tink i know u guys fer years..

to my close fren ricky..u r sweet..thanx fer lending ur shoulder wen i nid one..it did helps..all those nights we spend the time together...it realli make my mind at ease..really appreciate tat..luv u fer tat...

to my abang joe..hehe..u have always been dere fer me..give all those advice tat no one has ever told me..thank u fer understanding about my problems..luv u fer tat too...

these are the 2 people tat i really wanna say a big thank u..wen i haf no one else..u guys were dere fer me..luv u guys to bits!!!

anyway going school 2mrw..hope it wont be zainal's class...hope wont be late 2mrw..so before tat i haf a poem fer u guys..hey ricky,i can be sweet too u noe..hehehe....so enjoy it...

You turned my darkness into light;

You made everything all right.

You picked me up when I was down;

You turned my life around.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;

Even if it seemed like you didn't care.

When I didn't think I could make it another day,

You chased all my doubts away.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;

But there is only one of you.

You fill my heart with love;

You're a God-sent gift from above.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;

Because you are here with me.

There is no reason to be sad;

You've taken away all the bad.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A best friend is what you are to me!!

2005-04-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

staying at home now...checked out at the brothers will be eliminated tonite...*sobs*..my fav is rob and amber of coz....but the brothers were my second pick to win the race...haiya..juz don let ron n kelly win it...juz hate them...lol...watchin american idol now diret from satellite..

my schedule tis week was great..will onli be werking on sat and sunday..lol..hate me guys for my schedule...but it will onli be tis good fer tis week i guess....

hope nana will get transfer to jp..see u guys 2mrw....im out....

2005-04-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

had a dull day todae...lame day...wif stupid ppl in class...but luckily eddie,ricky n nana cum to my rescue..love u guys lots!!!!had a great day todae guys........muacks to u guys!!!!

2005-04-05T02:18:00.000+08:00

GAWD!!!!!I LOVE AMIN TO BITS!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-04T12:58:00.000+08:00

wooowww....i had a good sleep.....

todae is my off day..but 2mrw there's school..shoot...i tink my body will be breaking down sooner or later..i noe its juz a few weeks of school..but u noe...the stress i got from my werkplace is extremely high....ppl like to pressure me to do things..i hate tat..i like to do my own stuffs without anyone to bug me wen im doing things..i especially hate tis chinese girl from my werkplace...she tinks i dont understand chinese...fark it..i understood every single thing u say dammit...farker...

a note to tat farking bitch: i may be new in the werkplace..u dont teach me a single damn thing..all u do is ask me do all stuffs which i havent been teach..and u said in chinese tat teamwork is impt and i don werk as a team..gawd!!u and ur freaking long face...im still new..and i need my evaluation every month so i can get the freaking diploma..i nid a good attitude n behaviour..one bloody time u do it,only gawd noes wat i will do...dont try my patience...fark u bloody freaking long face bitch...

its like so fark wen everybody is so friendly and onli one idiotic pain in the ass bitch causing trouble...i juz wish she has to quit her job or sumting...get transfer...or cant werk anemore due to school or sumting...tats my wish....gawd!i will be stuck dere fer 18 mths..don expect me to werk wif her fer the rest of my 18 mths..

ok bek to a happy life..had our dinner at swensens wif amin yesterday.we tot of going holland village coz there's alfresco dining dere..but we met at 8pm..so its like quite late to go to holland v..so we head down to west mall..we ate the rodeo wings...the gold rush..the fries..breaded chicken..wow..its was great..luckily i wasnt posted dere coz the manager is so freaking fierce..one of the staff drop a whole tray of glass..and the guy got tis 5 mins stare from the manager..lol...

so school's 2mrw..gonna mit my frens..miz their crap...lol...i tink my tis entry is long enuf...

to amin...all the best fer ur exam..i luv u to bits!!!enjoy so much yesterday..thanx alot honey!!!muacks!!!

2005-04-03T15:56:00.000+08:00

im off todae.these few days been hard fer me...so going to swensens later with darl..gonna celebrate our anniversary..its like the first anniversary we ever celebrated..hahaha..after so long..we had went thru lots of ups and down.so we decide to go swensens and treat ourselves with ice cream..yum2!!!!miting amin at 7pm.so i will update if i have the time later....im out...

i have a pic..taken last week in class..hahha..me,ricky and eddie l00king so hard on liena's new phone..wekekeke...

2005-03-31T22:56:00.000+08:00

im lost..
i don noe wat 2 do...
i feel so insecure...
i feel so betrayed..

u tell me itsall assumptions..
but things u do r all make me think differently..
im confused..
im lost...
god..
help me..
i had enuf of all tis..
help me clear all this doubts..
wat am i to do?
leave it?

u say u love me..
nobody else is in ur heart..
u say u love me dearly..
tats not wat i felt fer the past few weeks..
oh god....
help me...
get me off from all this shit....

2005-03-30T12:14:00.000+08:00

im at home..supp0se to werk 9-5..but my manager ask me take mc coz of my eyes..urgh...i got tembel!!my sec sch frens wont be surprised coz they see it almost everyday in school..im used to having a bulging thingy on my eyes..will be going poly later to take mc..im sick fer quite a while too..im suck a sicko.hhhaha..ok...g0nna play the sims..ill be back..

a muzt watch todae!!amazing race!!2 hr special...can see boston rob on action fer one extra hour!!woohooo!!!!

ok....im out!

2005-03-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

school 2mrw...yawnzz......

watched desperate housewife..gawd..the show is awesome!!!!

aneway todae is amin's dad bdae..

so...happy birthday to you..
happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you!!!!!

yeay!!now watching american idol videoclip..i just lurvve constatine..i tink he has the best voice..got the charisma and everything..ok wanna watch vegas..another good show..full of hunks and babes..josh duhamel..gawd!!!!!he's hot!!!wow!!!juz lurve mon nites!!!ok..im out....

2005-03-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

No WORK 2MrW...wEEeeEEhOOoo00oO0!!!!

2005-03-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

TIRED......................

its onli been 2 days since i started my attachment at swensens..im attached at jp..and i like tat..i save transport money,time to wake up n blah2.....i was hoping tt i will be attached at jp coz it didnt l0ok bz wen i was passing tat swensens like 2 years ago..i was damn wrooonngggg!!!its like so bz..i wonder how ricky and nana doing at crown prince...the most busy outlet..well..at swensens jp was ok...nice ppl..and of coz....sum ppl will be like damn farking unfriendly...juz cant believe it sia..i have like 3 supervisors,4 managers and blah2....dunnoe y they need so many mangers dere...but all were fun...juz tat its been a while since i werk in fnb line..so my legs were kind of shut down after 8 hours standing..hahhaa...must realli train myself...

2mrw will be werking at 10-6pm..it will sure be super bz...i realli nid to study the menu coz witjout knowing it can really slow me down..its onli 2 days..but i haf to give a good impression coz they will be writing an evaluation every month..so must look super good in service and my knowledge menu..tats the hardest part fer being attached..haf to realli get along well wif the ppl dere..so they can write good things bout u...

so didnt meet amin todae coz he went out wif his grandma n m0m...pr0lly meeting him 2mrw..now realli resting my legs coz i realli have to get ready fer 2mrw.it saturday...even though its jp it can l00k as if im werking town area...will be going macdonalds wif my parents coz my m0m didnt cook...ok..gtg.....muacks!!

ps: and yaniez.....can u pls tell me ur blog add??????

2005-03-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

followed my m0m to KK Hospital to get her results..Luckily its ok..went wif my alien bro..had our lunch dere..ate chicken laksa..it was so not nice...hahha..then went to gek poh to buy sum stuffs b4 going home..then had my nap...suddenly my m0m woke me up and say tat one matrep was being chased by police..lame sia..with the tapered pants running to nowhere..then marsilah msg me..told me tat 2 of my classmates are going out wif each other..wish them all the best lah..hahha...then ricky sms the whole class and told us about his skin problem thingy.haha..funny sia tat guy..

2mrw have to meet the manager of swensens in school...cant be late...cant wait fer the amazing race to start..wanna watch rob and amber..they lo0k so swit together.. watching american idol now..wish me luck so i wont be posted to crown prince..

2005-03-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

sick day again..had my typhoid jab..can realli feel the numbness when having a fever..shoot..nt sure if wanna go school 2mrw..

aneway i got a few of taufik's pic from this girl's blog...hhaha...enjoy taufik fans.

2005-03-21T00:15:00.000+08:00

follow amin jamming at sheng chai..yah..the stupid,stingy nyonya..haha..went wif faizal and rajiv..used to call themselves CKTC..but don noe wat happen after tat..its been 6 mths since they jam together.so it was kind of fun..i played a bit of guitar and i tink i am heading no where near to become a guitarist..hahha...snaps some photos of them..it was fun guys even though i had to struggle 2 hours in dat air conditioned ro0m wif a blocked nose..hahaha...so here are the pics..

P. S to zhaf:i hate u so much fer taking pic wif taufik..damn u!!!*wink**wink*

2005-03-19T17:33:00.000+08:00

Being in love is about being crazy
Going out in a thunder storm with the person you love
Getting wet and laughing and screaming and feeling alive
Feeling your heart beat as fast as the patter of rain

No worries
All you can hear is the patter of rain, heavy breathing and the beat of your hearts
Being in love is about being wild
Running and laughing together just like a child
Love is when you can lie down together in the middle of the street at
midnight and not bescared
So lost in each others love that you say
“If I die right here, at least my last moment would have been with you”
So caught up in the love of the other,
neither would break the moment even if an 8-wheelerwas gonna run ‘em over

No worries
Being in love isn't about the number of breaths you take together
Being in love is about the moments you take each other’s breath away

2005-03-19T16:01:00.000+08:00

todae is saturday..and im at home..shoot..im sick..had a terrible flu,cough and a slight fever..juz got well last week..damn..tot of miting amin todae but im sick..so he went to his grandma's place..mon will be having my typhoid jab.hope im not sick on monday...so im gonna rest..maybe update more later...

2005-03-18T00:12:00.000+08:00

hot dae.lame day.no fags.no money.one more day of school.

my blog is back.yah.the feeling of making my blog suddenly appear.i got a test 2mrw.shoot.but fark.liena says its easy.well...watever..i started school last week..its fun.i got a singhalese guy in class,a minah,a quite lame guy and a bubbly girl.they r nice ppl..can really click wif them.still havent start my attachment yet.by next week.so rest while i can..if u ask me y i choose hospitality,i wont know wat to answer.ha.so i nid to slip.kind of lazy after putting the template.not realli done finish but the laziness is sumwhere in me..i end it here then....